Best thing that happened today is I texted my sister & she loved the idea of me bringing my plant when I come to stay with her. She's got very high ceilings but if I put the plant in this big brass planter it looks stately. Yay! I was sad to leave it behind, we've been together since '18 (I think*). I (creatively) call it Planty.
*I loathe that I used to document my life on Meta platforms. All that info is unfindable, unlike #fediverse where I can easily search past posts & they're *mine*!
I was prepping today for a friend to come by & help me move boxes & bins down to my car. They're probably not coming. I think I'll sleep early. I packed 2 bins, joining 2 boxes. It sounds so meager. I also prepare meals & clean minimally. Every movement drains me. I feel good honestly about the packing progress. It's on today's streams. But I'm realizing that I'm more tired earlier today than usual & it's probably because of the minor lifting I did. I may nap & start again when I wake. Slowly...
I might start saying... well it's kinda like my substitute for 3 good things but not so verbal... I'm tired, I need to say this word more to more than 1 person (my boyfriend) putting so much pressure on 1 relationship & I do feel this way towards the fediverse... and and and
OK
It's ok
Let's not freak out
It's just words
Putting good feelings into the world
Breathe
I. Love. You.
It's ok
Don't freak out
It's innocent
Good intentions
Wholesome
Putting good into the world
Breathe
😅
Customization is my jam
Streaming again
Https://humanissome.org
Baldness & blondeness | Disrespect for physical signs of aging is pervasive despite being dysfunctional & antihumanist. 2 widespread examples are male pattern baldness & blonde hair darkening. I was blond, then brown, now gray-brown. Hair color judgment is more drastic against women while balding is much more prevalent among men. I don't have much more to say than this observation. The majority of adult blondes are dyed. As for men? Baseball caps becoming everyday wear seems the common response.
What's the science of why some materials feel warmer? Can anyone offer, or direct me to, an explanation that a ding dong could enjoyably comprehend?
I try not to spy on my neighbors but I couldn't help but see (& now report to you!) that 9A is watching Wheel of Fortune.
countdown to moonrise
Rare evening stream at https://humanissome.org — So far not saying much. My goals are to watch the moonrise & do a little bit of packing. Streaming helps me focus & stay up through the pain.
Quote Boosting is here! On desktop Mastodon interface see options at Preferences -> Appearance -> BOOSTING PREFERENCES
where I've chosen
[✓] Enable Quick Boosting
When enabled, clicking on the Boost icon will immediately boost instead of opening the boost/quote dropdown menu. Relocates the quoting action to the Options menu (three dots).
Also of note,
Tip: Regardless of settings, Shift + Click on the Boost icon will immediately boost.
RE: https://mastodon.gamedev.place/@eniko/115504017436070858
Attention everyone who misses one-tap boosting, on desktop go to Preferences -> Appearance & scroll down to Boosting options.
Streaming again. Embedded at https://humanissome.org
Until I learn how to set up & figure how I'll pay for fedi streaming I use twitch & move the finished vids to YouTube. Linked from https://humanissome.org.
When I felt at my worst I would withdraw from the platforms where I knew folks irl & express myself on Twitter. I'm sure there's a label for what I'm doing, when connection feels too raw. I know that humans activate anxiety in me. It's THE reason my art preference is abstract. If a painting has a human in it I feel too emotional. I can safely process emotion in shapes & colors. And I do. The #fediverse is for me because it's authentic caring at a distance! Not making demands I can't satisfy. 2/2
I used to keep my email inbox at 200. I don't know what those 200 messages are, I just knew that everything over 200 was a new message. But now it's at 230. I am tired & afraid to take on new tasks when I feel so drained.
I tell the people on Insta (irl acquaintances) that I don't check notifications there bc of the inherent hostility of the platform. But I know that the messages are mostly well wishers. Why do I avoid? I think they feel too trite? Even good wishes can feel like demands?
1/2
Currently watching a professor who amuses me, Tara Brabazon, describing "the Batman effect" of role playing to boost accomplishment: https://youtu.be/l9UREpxP5ug?t=677
#ScribesAndMakers 06/11: Do you subscribe to any newsletters? Do you read them?
No & Yes.
Lol no obviously: No & No.
Edit: 12 hrs later I realize that I could sometimes read material that's also a newsletter. I don't know. If someone wanted my posts in their email I'd do that for them. Sorry to babble! Me personally, my email inbox is a toxic space I'm working hard to salvage. Regardless, I don't like the idea of receiving assignments to read; I like wandering, discovering.
Moon over my hammy—I mean Jacksonville.
THIS is what I'm talking about! https://youtu.be/qKT9cAC43XQ
Re: above toot in which that fool Anderson Cooper sneered at Mamdani's ability to govern based on limited experience. (You see, oNLy soMEoNE wHo's ALreAdY BEen aN eXecUtivE cAn bE an exEcUTIve. Who needs representative democracy? Let elites pick elites!)
I do something I haven't done in a while in the #stream Think Human Make Art https://youtu.be/9d6JGWPnS6k I make art. Scribbles on paper. I talk about what art is. I show some watercolors that I found recently in a box FROM 1989. I thank my younger self for dating those & saving them, even tho it's not "praiseworthy" art. Making & keeping them reflect my desire to create visual art—that re-emerged a few years later—& they show that my #art centers on play & self expression > technical skill. #Rartsy